Really living for me
04 May 2011 2 Comments
So this year begins the life I live for me. Its been a rough start, full of stress. I’m happy but the after effects of leaving my marriage still linger. Just a week ago..an uncle sent me some very unkind words. He was upset with me for separating from my husband. He was upset with both of us. He didn’t understand it. None of them do. How can you leave a “good guy” ? they think.. As if good or bad are the labels you can throw around to explain so much. I left because that good guy, wasn’t the guy for me. I don’t think I was the girl for him either. Yes we did well for the years we were together, but I want more, and I’m actually feeling and getting more from the guy I’m currently dating..We have more in common, we want the same things. Suddenly I”m excited about every holiday, every weekend..little things, big things, silly things. I’m a grownup..so having relatives act as if I’m a child who can’t make my own decisions–is upsetting. I was VERY upset last week. But since then I’ve decided to let it go. I don’t need their approval..I have a life to live. I’ve been stress eating..and not getting enough exercise and tonight I walked for 45 minutes and it felt incredible. Like “Remember those endorphins?”..yes I do! I need to find them much more often. I’m worth it.
May 07, 2011 @ 02:35:22
I have never understood why anyone thinks they can judge another person’s relationship, or tell them whether to stay in it or not. “Good guy” doesn’t necessarily mean good for you.
Jun 15, 2011 @ 17:30:22
I agree, I can’t imagine why anyone feels that they can judge another person’s relationship. Yay for you! We all have inner voices that tell us when things aren’t right and you followed yours like you were supposed to! You are living for you and that great, because you are worth it!